To all those girls who are tough on the outside but soft on the inside,
You got tired of being alone, didn’t you?
Of acting like nothing ever matters to you,
Of walking with your head held high up,
Of building walls around you.
The tiniest act of love or caring
melts down your stone heart real quick.
But, no, you won’t show it.
You claim that being alone is what makes you the happiest.
But in reality, all you need is love
You won’t accept it
Not because you don’t need it
But because you are terrified,
You are tired of getting disappointed,
Tired of disappointing others.
The four walls of your house that saw your changing emotions
And the pillow that saw your childishness
and your honest tears know the reasons.
The things that surround you,
with memories and dreams you built up attached to them,
make you wanna die.
But, you walk around like you don’t remember them.
When you hear, when you see the things that hurt you the most
You act like you don’t care.
You may be crying inside but no one will ever know.
Wiping away a tear or two that escaped,
you convince others that you were being silly.
You have so much going on inside your mind but you can’t express it
as you don’t expect others to understand you.
You try to be strong, independent
By avoiding everyone,
Not getting attached to anyone
for the fear of getting hurt again.
Locking up all your emotions, memories,
all those broken promises, all those backstabs
To carefully preserve the heart
that’s once been stabbed, cheated, and played upon.
You learn to live your life on your own
You learn to create your own happiness
You learn to love yourself and enjoy your own company.
But, you long for someone
to bring back the child inside you
But no, you won’t pour your heart out to anyone the way you used to.
The more you seem to be tough
the less others care about you.
You know this rule still you act on purpose.
You know you won’t live up to their expectations
So you fight hard to be yourself
Following your dreams, doing the things you love the most
sometimes, just to forget your bad past.
On the outside,
You are prepared to live alone,
Not wanting anyone else
Proud and happy
Shining your own light,
Making others happy,
Making others feel jealous of you.
But on the inside,
You are weak,
You are tired
You feel lonely,
You need help
You want to love and to be loved!
Every night you close your eyes by cursing your life but
You wake up every morning hoping that the best is yet to come.
Trust me my love,
you are truly God’s favorite
as not everyone can walk around with a smiling face and a crying heart.
No, you are not being fake,
This is who you are!
~Chintha
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